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behind the smiles


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Flying and falling at the same time.
Scarred heart. Confused mind.
Unspoken words. Untold stories.
Unanswered questions.
Suppressed feelings.

I want to forget.
Sappy life goes here.



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Are you from my school? Read this.
I'd rather eat. Pizza loves me.

Your voice has become my favorite sound.

I love how you say my name, how you sigh, how you laugh at my loser jokes, how you whisper those undecipherable words against my ears, how you attempt to stop from hiccuping, how you shout that you love me in the vast blue ocean, how you sing on the phone, how you sing hitting all the wrong notes during a family celebration, I love your grunts and groans, the way you speak with your hands and eyes. I just love your voice. And hearing you speak to me makes me feel safe even when you’re not here. I just love your voice. 


Posted 3 days ago / Reblog
Sep 27th, 2014

This blog is pretty much on hiatus now.

I don’t know. I’m so caught up with my tangled decisions, I keep on delaying things that I know I should prioritize. I just want to sleep for a long time and never wake up while my life will decide on itself. Ugh, I know I’m not making any sense now. I feel drunk and tired.


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Sep 27th, 2014

You

It’s like I’m drowning, and you saved me.
You are the feeling of surfacing out to get air.
You are the spectrum to my black and white and gray life.
You are the familiar face in every crowd.
You are the home that I’d always be welcomed into.
You are the sun rays that escaped through the clouds.
You are the stars in my darkest nights.
You are there when I’m not even searching.
You are here.
You are everywhere.


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Sep 27th, 2014
23/50 Divergent by Veronica Roth

23/50 Divergent by Veronica Roth

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Sep 27th, 2014
21. Like the Flowing River by Paulo Coelho22. If I Stay by Gayle Forman

21. Like the Flowing River by Paulo Coelho
22. If I Stay by Gayle Forman

Posted 2 weeks ago / Reblog
Sep 16th, 2014

Here I am again, lost in my own thoughts.

Tomorrow is the day. The day to prove my self-worth. The day to strike and grab what’s rightfully mine. The day to be the real me.


Posted 2 weeks ago / Reblog
Sep 14th, 2014

I want another stargazing session with you.


Posted 3 weeks ago / Reblog
Sep 6th, 2014
Anonymous : moreeeeee pretty please

Hahahaha! I’m afraid he’ll read this. So yeah. 


Posted 3 weeks ago / Reblog
Sep 6th, 2014
Anonymous : who's your crush? give us clues
  • someone I followed two years ago
  • I’m pretty sure he’s straight lol not a gay
  • a fellow UP student
  • he’s older than me
  • we both love the same HBO TV series

I think those should be enough clues. Haha


Posted 3 weeks ago / Reblog
Sep 6th, 2014

By the time I reached the station, the train had already left. He, too, had left me. I wanted to shout, to get mad at the world, to blame everyone around me. But then, it was me. It was me who had been so stubborn. It was me who had been hard on him. It was me who had pushed him away. I can’t do anything now. Abruptly, I grew cold in the knees, and fell sitting onto the hard concrete floor. Everything went blank as if the world stopped spinning. Unconsciously looking at the ground I said, “Why did you leave?”

"I will never leave you." The world dawned on me when I heard those five words. It was his voice. I slowly turn my head to look at the person in front of me. There he was, offering his hand with that beautiful smile on his face. He stayed, and he will never leave. I took his hand in my mine. This was real, he was here. And I’ll never let go of this hand forever.


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Sep 6th, 2014